Monday, March 19, 2012

Thirty Days After the Super Show 4 in Singapore

Photos courtesy of xmakyu and heeemmy

 We are packing up the blog and we will not be posting anymore.

It was a great journey...

And it has not even ended

because it's always an AND


Photos courtesy of xmakyu and heeemmy

So what really happens when you go abroad just to see Super Junior

Yes, I did it. I saw Super Junior. I saw Lee Hyukjae. I went to Singapore. I became part of the sapphire blue sea.

I originally wrote a thirteen page, blow-by-blow account of our journey to see Super Junior in a Super Show in Singapore. But I am too lazy to type it all in the computer :-/ Writing that was just perhaps a way for me to acknowledge that the things I did last February 18 and 19, 2012 really happened. That I can take that memory with me forever. That I have that experience stored in me, forever to treasure and be grateful for.

Yeah. Maybe that's it.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

The End Is Just The Beginning

I hope you guys had fun reading this blog. I have plans that has something to do with Korea and Petals so watch out for that. I‘m sorry it took me so long to post this. Take care chingus and always have SJ in your hearts everlasting ^^

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Signing Off...Till Next Time

Now that I’m down with my final entry on this blog, I happen to recall those times when I was soo eager to share a piece of me and my SS4SG preparation; but now since it will be last entry I will ever write here I just don’t think that I can do it.

For the umpteenth time; as what I frequently mention in my previous blogs – this will not be the end and I will surely not stop here. Now that for the first time in my life I’ve never seen a clearer view of my direction in life; I will definitely continue fighting for it. 

I was glad to see the boys, so glad to part of the Super Show for the first time and waved with the Sapphire Blue Sea. I can’t thank God and everyone else who made this possible.

Thank You to my family, my friends, my work mates and my supervisors for granting my leave from work for first time that went as long as almost a week. Thank you to Cebu Pacific for the safe flight, to Mr. Daniel Fontanar (Dawnhae’s Dad). Thank you to Singapore for being a NO VISA country.

Lastly to the Boys who made all of it worth it.

Thank You Henry for your beautiful rendition of Lighters.

Thank You Zhou Mi for the song “Goodbye”. It will definitely be not the last time I’ll see you.

Thank You Shindong for dressing as Hyuna and doing my favorite song “Trouble Maker”

Thank You Donghae for “This is Love and “Oppa has Risen” and for closing the doors of the stadium for us to spend the night together.

Thank You Ryeowook for the abs that “Moves like a Jagger” and for your cuteness.

Thank You Leeteuk for being so active and singing “She”. I still hoped that I was the one you hugged at the end.

Thank You Kyuhyun for your sincerity and concern to everyone who came and watched.

Thank You Hyukjae for proving that beauty is truly in the eye of the beholder.

Thank You Yesung for that wonderful song, you never failed to take my breath away.

Thank You Sungmin for your cuteness. You are truly beautiful in my eyes; that sexy performance was so hot.

Thank You Siwon for making me love you even more. 

It was a truly memorable experience. Hope to see you on our next adventures as ELFs.

This has been Missy Airene a.k.a Yerene Kim Choi now Signing Off…

Sunday, March 11, 2012

It's not an "END" but an "AND"

This would be my last post on this blog (as agreed upon the admins), so I guess it's time to say my last words in here.

First, I would like to thank God for the opportunity to see Super Junior again on their fourth Super Show concert, in the foreign land of Singapore. He made it all possible! I would also like to thank my awesomest ELFriends - Dawn, Emmy, J, and Airene, who were with me in this SS4 Singapore journey. You know I can't do this alone. I also thank my family and friends for always supporting me on this decision. I know most of them can't understand as to why I would go this far just to see my boys but I guess they saw how passionate and determined I was and that it's for my happiness. =)

I know I will still be able to see Super Junior again soon. My wish for SS4 Manila is still on the list.
As leader Teukie will always say, "it's not an 'end' but an 'and'" so I foresee another great Super Junior adventure for us. =D

Thank you once again and always stay healthy everyone~! XmaKyu now signing off. =)

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Final Say...

What should I say here? I'm not really sure... I don't want to end this blog but I guess I have to move on.  After SS4SG, I became so dysfunctional since I miss them everyday especially Donghae. I want more of them. Yes, I've become so greedy but if it's the only way to see them again, then just let me be greedy.

Yes, I want more. I mean it. And I will make sure to achieve it. Going to Singapore and watching SS4 has been the happiest days of my life so far but I will make sure to have more in the future. Life is too short for me and I've wasted so many years of my life just doing nothing to make me happy. I thought I was happy being in love with someone but that person was also the reason of my heartbreak. 

I never thought I would reach this phase of my life when 15 boys would be able to control everything. Sometimes I feel I'm too stressed for this but I don't regret anything. They are not just "celebrities" but they have become part of my life. Part of me. They gave me happiness more than I could imagine. They let me experience unconditional love. The kind of love where I don't expect anything but still feel satisfied. They made me feel like I'm not just a fan but a friend whom they care for.

When I started to become an ELF last April 17, 2011, I've always wanted to become part of the sapphire blue sea. And that dream was achieved in Singapore last February 18 and 19, 2012, after my 10th ELF monthsary. I felt overwhelmed being able to be in the same place and breathe the same air with my boys. It felt like I was able to escape from a prison and experienced freedom for the first time. A classmate of mine even asked me how high my dopamine levels were during the concert and I just answered him "much higher than that of metamphetamine!" It was euphoria. It was better than life itself. I may be exaggerating things here, but those were my real feelings. I shouted until my throat hurts, I jumped until I got bruises and I cried until my eyes became dry.

After it all ended, I thought it would be alright. But no. It was not okay. I craved for more. Every time I reminisce all the things that happened, my heart aches. I miss them. I miss him. I want to see them again. If I were born from a rich family, then it would have been easier. But I'm not, so I had to endure all these longing. Every time SM announces new SS4 schedule, I always feel the rush to buy concert tickets. I had to stop myself or else my father would kill me. I'm not really sure when I could get over this or would I be able to.

I thank all my SS4SG travelmates: Hyukcien, Missiwon, Chriskyu and Heemmy for being with me in those days. Thank you for supporting me in my dream. We all have the same dream and being with you has been the best. I hope to do all other fangirling endeavors with you soon. 

I would be even very much willing to spend the rest of my life with you guys and support these 15 boys until the end... 

- dawnhae ^_^ -

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

What happens when you go abroad just to see Super Junior

I have put off writing this for the longest time. Well, because I want to keep those two fateful days/nights forever engraved in my heart (however that is). It seems that writing about it will make me acknowledge that it is all over. That the cynic in me will finally stop taunting me of the two "fateful" days I have to "pay for". And that the sentimental geek in me will really have to unpack and pore over the mounting junk ie memorabilia, photos, banners, lightsticks, stones (?) that I have acquired in my very brief trip.

As of posting this, it has only been 18 days, 12 hours and 58 minutes since February 18th 2012. Gaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I couldn't write this


Hello everyone!!!

It has been three weeks since Super Junior's Super Show 4 in Singapore.

The blog has served its purpose in giving us a place to write and/or spazz about our preparation for the Singapore trip. We will forever treasure those days, won't we? Okay, we should.
Anyway, we are closing the blog exactly on March 18.

The site will still be available in the internet, it's just that we will no longer be able to post and or update our posts.

Don't worry, we could still keep on commenting on the posts you know.

So everyone, it's time to write our final words of wisdom (haha). All posts should be in by 12 noon March 18. Thankies.

Till then, it was fun while it lasted ☼

I Will Surely Not Stop Here

               This is a re-post from my very own blog but  I decided to share it here as well as part of this blog...

               It took me 2 weeks to finally decide and write this one out of my mind. It was a long and hard process; getting over the experience was really difficult. Until this very moment every time I close my eyes I can still imagine my self standing inside the stadium cheering at the top of my voice and singing out loud to the songs they were singing in that 2 unforgettable nights.

                Last February 18 and 19 2012, Super Junior held their Super Show 4 in the Singapore Indoor Stadium and I was one of the luckiest people to have been able to join and experience the breath-taking concert.  Fireworks, Water Fountains, loud surround music, VCRs, 37 songs, costume, loads of fan service, extravagant solo stages and Boys themselves made it a Super Show indeed.

                It took me and my friends at least 7 months of preparation for that event. Especially that J, Dawn and I are first timers for this concert.  We specially applied for our passports just to get to Singapore; not to shop and enjoy the scenic places but stalk and meet the Boys in flesh.

                For a first time ELF like me, watching a SUPER SHOW is a must. Watching it in a different country is surely another Big thing or should I say Super Thing. J, Dawn and I were first timers; unlike Emmy and Chrisma who already watched SS3 in Manila. It was also our first time to travel to a different country, for Dawn and J it was their first time to board a plane. When I reached Singapore, I couldn’t explain the feeling. I feel so happy that the Boys and I are now under the same sky and we could almost breathe in the same air. The more it was when I entered the Singapore Indoor Stadium since we are now under the same roof. I never thought that it would be that big, the stage was huge and a lot of people were also there to enjoy the show. I can’t sit still and I was getting excited in every minute that would pass. The moment the lights were turned off my heart stopped from beating too, the much awaited under-water VCR or we call it the 4th gate was then playing on the large LCD screens. The Sapphire Blue Ocean was clearly waving as everyone was calling out the Boys’ names. I was one proud ELF to be a part of the Sapphire Blue Ocean for the first time on my very first Super Show.

                The boys started with one of my favorite song- Superman; the fountain and the fireworks were amazing. I was doing my fan chant and at the same time singing along with them. I remembered crying since I just can’t believe my eyes that I am seeing them. They followed it with the song Opera which has great dance moves, the always present songs Twins and A Man in Love where Kyuhyun again appears and disappears from the scene. After a VCR they once appeared on the stage with another of my favorite song BONAMANA. After that song the Boys introduced themselves and for the first time I heard them talking in person and right before my very eyes. The boys started moving around the stage when they sang You Are My Endless Love.

                I will surely run out of words if I will talk about everything I saw that day, so I will just do it this way. I will follow the Solo Stage Sequence:

Henry – I was not able to see him up close on both days that I watched the concert, maybe it was because they didn’t really come out that often. On the first day he sang Lazy Song and on the second day he sang another song which was Off My Mind. My favorite though was his version of Lighters by Bruno Mars. He played the violin so well, besides that fact that he did sing the song beautifully.

Hyukjae – It was my first time spazzing for Hyuk. Not because I like him less than the others but because J will really kill me if I do. I was amazed by the huge jewel in the center of the stage that reflected the lights that hit it. At first I thought it was Shindong who will come out from it after learning he was doing Trouble Maker and Bubble Pop. But when the music started and everyone else except us started chanting “Lee Hyukjae, Lee Hyukjae” our eyes was like saucers. What a fail! I got the chance to see him closely. He was soo handsome and I never thought that he would look that good considering the fact that the other members would say he was the least good looking. Asking the fans what his name is was so cute, and on the second day he even said he will be a different star; he is Brad Pitt, Tom Cruise, Johnny Depp and Choi Siwon (hahahahaha).I even spazz harder when I heard him talking…I just can’t describe it, but Hyukjae was one of the most memorable person from me that night. “Tis is not shnow…Tis is pepper”

Sungmin – OMG!!! My Sungmin is one of the reasons why I really wanted to see SS4. I wanted to see how pretty (regardless if he’s a man; for me he doesn’t look like one) he is. He is so DAMN (pardon for the word) perfect in my eyes. He was flawless and “milky white skin” it is. I was sort of disappointed by how limited Kyumin (I’m a shipper of this OTP) moments are, but I surely treasured it. There was a time on the first day where they formed a heart together during the “You and I” perf.  Kyuhyun even let Sungmin bite his apple during the “Pajama Party” perf and even stood beside each other parting their bangs. I also got to see him up close and during that time he and Siwon was doing fan service by forming a heart shaped arms together. But my favorite was his Solo Stage, where he sang and dance; sexy dancing. How I wished I was that dancer whom he touched and danced with. Just thinking about it makes me super happy all over again as if I’m back to that very day.

Kyuhyun – He followed Sungmin’s perf (^_^)…  Singing “ Isn't She Lovely” stole a lot of hearts away; including mine. He was the best among all of them when it comes to fan service. He even worried about those who were located almost near the roof if they could still see them from the stage. He made sure to it that he would reach every corner of the stadium. He even stood in front of me for about 5 minutes just to waive at fans and allow them to take his photo. I was trying my very best to shout his name even if my voice was failing, lucky enough he still looked my way for a few seconds and I almost died.

Ryeowook – I don’t really spazz for Wookie that much since for me he is like a child, but don’t get me wrong I still love him. Wookie looked like a doll, he was soo cute and pretty. I also got to see him closely since he also stood in front of me while taking Polaroid photos with fans. He smiles like a child and I really loved how kind he is to fans who were really trying there best to get a photo. During his most awaited perf of the song “Moves Like Jagger” at the first day we were disappointed since we were sitting at the left side and he lifted his shirt at the right; showing his abs. At the end of his first day perf he smiled and even did the peace sign after singing and dancing like an all grown up man which really made me wanna pinch his cheeks. However on the second day of the concert, we were now located at the right side and on that very moment he lifted his shirt on our side we all went crazy and I was like OMG…s*** Wookie wae so hot!!! Even my friend Dawn almost wanted to jump down from where we were located which was about 10 ft or more.

Leeteuk – My favorite leader, person and oppa. He always amazes me, he has never failed to make me feel; a midst all those ELFs who were at the concert that I as an ELF was loved and appreciated. He has bowed at every corner of the stadium and said his thank you to everyone. He even called out the Philippines when he was thanking the international fans who came since my friend Chrisma made a banner that says “We Love SJ Philippines”. I so wanted to get one of the roses he was giving away during his solo stage while singing “She”. I was sort of disappointed when he did not get into a harness and flew above the ELFs while throwing away his roses. Oh how I wish you wouldn’t leave the Boys behind for 2 years. I will always have that respect for you “ahjusshi”.

Shindong – waaaahhhhhhaaaahhhhaaahhhaaa… I was left speechless. His was one of my favorite perfs during the concert. I love the song “Trouble Maker” and I always love Shindong’s antics which made it a total performance for me. During his solo stage while he went at the back of that thing that shows his silhouette people were screaming out loud seeing him doing sexy moves but me and my friends were screaming because we could see Shindong from our spot stripping his dress while preparing for his next song which was “Bubble Pop”. Not to mention his laser show was also Daebak! We even made our banner especially for Shindong.

 Zhou Mi – I love this guy. He always has that amazing charm and talent. Before I went to Singapore I was reading through “tumblr” and saw that some were planning a “black sea” for Zhou Mi. Meaning they would put off their lightsticks on his perf. I was soo glad that did not happen. He did not sing “Because of You" on his solo stage, instead it was a Chinese song which I later found out was part of “Skip Beat’s OST - Goodbye”. J, Dawn, Emmy and I were screaming so hard to cheer for him and on the second day we made a Banner just for him which was very visible according to Chrisma who was seated somewhere else.

Yesung – well Yesung, what can I say to you. You are the very reason I became an ELF because I fell in love with you. I told my self I wanted to be in the Super Show because I wanted to see you in person. I could not bear listening to that song you sang because I don't want to cry and accept the reality that you are not singing it just for me but for everyone else (I know it sounds crazy, but what can I do; I really loved this guy). His song goes like this although it's now in English sub: “There's a man who loves you so much. There’s a man who can't even say I love you. By your side I put my hand out and at a path where you can always reach me. I, who cherishes you, more than myself, am with you.” I soo wanted to see you smile and happy that time. I was glad to see you close. When I get my chance someday I would do my very best to let you know how thankful I am for pulling me out of the dark; thank you for singing that song. It may not be “It Has To Be You” but you will always be that “One Man” for me. “There's a girl, who doesn't know I'm like this. Who receives love, but doesn't even know that it is love. Leaving you, who is as foolish as I and sad. At this moment tears come but I'm happy. It's because you're by my side.” You are always my Kim Yeye.

Siwon – How ironic, first the Man who made me an ELF sang first and next in line was the Man who took me away from him (although I haven’t decided yet). Siwon oppa, you took my breath away. Live hip thrust and his “chocolate abs” in the flesh. I can’t help but admire the man more. While he was singing on his solo stage I just waved my lightstick admiring how he sings his heart out. I was not shouting or calling out his name since he was singing a song of praise. Maybe what I love most about him is his love for God and is never ashamed of showing it. I loved how playful he was during the entire show and how happy he was the whole time. I was also able to see him up close.

Donghae – I know he made my friend Dawn so happy when he sang “This is Love” as part of his solo stage before singing “Oppa has Risen” with Hyukjae. He too was really good looking; I got the chance to see him up close and was amazed at how handsome this guy is. “He looked like a Doll” according to J. He was one of the most manic during the first day; and on the second day he stole a lot of hearts when he said “I locked all the doors so that we could spend the night together”. He even lay down the stage and stretched his arms so that someone could lay down on it too. I know that Dawn wanted to be that girl ^_^.

                What I love most during the concert was the Storm and Our Love perfs. The Boys never fails to have a perf where they get to tribute the ELFs. It was so heartwarming seeing them crying when we get to sing the chorus of “Our Love”. It will surely be an experience to last a lifetime. I will never forget that nights and how much love I felt. I will surely not stop now, not ever. I felt sad when the concert ended the second day since I know that it will also be the end of happiness. But it was just temporary, I will surely see them again and that will be whole new experience. I’ll see them when I see them. I just pray that God will keep them safe until we meet again. I finally realized that my life has a direction, a lifetime promise to the Boys that for every show they will have from this day on, I will surely be a part of it.

Monday, March 5, 2012

My SS4 Singapore Fancams~!

This post from my blog is worthy of being posted here. ^^

I'm very thankful that God blessed me with a lot of luck in Super Show 4 Singapore and successfully captured several fancams! You know that Singapore is very strict about their rules and it was strictly no video/camera recording but I guess God heard my prayers! =)

Without further ado, here are my fancams, recorded by yours truly~






Mr. Simple

Lovely Day


Sorry, Sorry


I know my view isn't that great but I'm just too grateful that I can see my boys again and record some of their performances. I know for sure in the future, I will look back on these videos and reminisce one of my most awesome memories of my life. ♥